My house is quite this morning. It is not normally like this but Angel-girl is not here today. I have the windows open. The weather is giving us a reprieve from the heat by blessing us with a cuddly grey sky. I have quiet worship playing and the fuzzy boy dogs are flanked on each side of me as I sit here on the couch with my (San Antonio Starbucks) coffee cup and you. Hmmm….It makes me let out a contented sigh.
………Goodness, I lost myself in picturing you here with me.
What shall I write about this morning?
Can I share something with you? Last month I had an encounter with Jesus. I have been trying to figure out how to put it all to words and have now decided that it will happen as I type. I want to share it because I believe with all my heart it is something that is meant for you too.
In this encounter, I found myself standing with Jesus. We were in a grassy field and I had the freedom to shake off my own self doubt concepts and know that I could talk with Jesus about anything. Specifically I was told that I needed ask Jesus what He thought of me. That can be a bold and intimidating thing to ask but only because of those self doubts. The reality is that we can ask anything at all and He is right there to answer.
In response to my question, Jesus didn’t say anything. Instead He looked at me and smiled. It wasn’t a full faced smile but more of a soft smile that hints emotion filled eyes. He took me in his arms and gave me a big hug. You know the kind of hug like Daddy would give, where it was a tender safe hug that wrapped around you and filled you with a sense of protection that never ended? IT was that kind of hug. At the same time He hugged me, He pressed my head against his chest so that my ear was on the sound of His heart beat. This is the part that overwhelms me every time. His heart beat was not the regular “bump-bump” sound that we are used to. Instead of that sound, His heart beat was the sound of my name. With each beat of my name a wave of His glorious love rippled out around and beyond us. That ripple affected change to everything in its path.
In the exact moment that I heard and felt that experience, I also knew that it is how He feels about each one of us. That image and feeling is made for each one of us. He jumps up and down for us in His excitement. He is wildly in love with us. He moves mountains for us and created the world for us. But more than that, He is passionately tender over us and carries us in His heart. He is our reason for living. And I realized WE are HIS reason for being.
The whole experience lasted only a split second. It is amazing how much God can deposit into us within the folds of our finite measurement of time. Though it was a second of time, it has been my most constant thought ever since. I want to encourage you to do the same. Carry it with you and know that you are loved at this very moment just the way you are; complete in Him.
Better yet, ask your own question to God and wait for His answer. I promise you won’t be sorry.