Monday Pippin and I made the hour drive to look at a car for sale at the same dealership where Hubby and I bought last December. It ended up being an all day event but well worth it. Our "friends" at the dealership did us fair and honest in giving our daughter a good deal for her first big purchase. I am excited for her and tinged around the edges with that odd parental feeling of seeing my little girl grow up jsut a bit more as she takes those "rights of passages" steps to full adulthood.
Last night our foster son came back to touch base with us after being out of contact for a while. He has hit bottom (hopefully) and has been clean for 2 days. He sat with me last night crying at the realization of his choices affecting his life as well as others who love him. He made the first phone call last night to checking himself into an inpatient treatment program and then slept on our couch feeling safe for the first time in a long time. I played worship music all night and prayed over him to stave away the nightmares and withdrawals.
Today I pray for straight answers and strength for him as he follows through with the next steps. I pray he can get into a program quickly.
Last night and this morning was also a time for young teenage drama with friends of my youngest daughter. Multiple phone calls with cries of 'Mama Julie this......' and 'Mama Julie that....' left me frustrated. I love them and I know they are only trying to wrap their heads around what they are capable of. But goodness all I wanted to do was scream 'Get over yourself! Enough with your petty self serving attitude! There is so much more to life than your small event!'
But that serves nothing but my own emotions. Nothing ever gets better by lashing out in emotion.
So here I am focusing on this thought.......Breathe in for it is a new day and new days bring new hope and renewed expectation.
Thank You God that I don't have to do things in my own strength but can look to You to tackle anything that comes my way. Thank You that You are in charge and Your plan and promise says "I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." (Jeremiah 29:11)
This song has been my constant for the past few days. In my head, in each breath, as my thoughts drift in sleep.....this is what I hear........
I pray that wherever you are, no matter what you are doing, you know that you are loved and special. You have a purpose and a destiny that no one and nothing can take away from you. You have an amazing identity filled with love and joy and celebration.
You've had quite an eventful week with with a mixed bevy of emotions this week. You're handling them real well though with your faith in God. Loved the video!
ReplyDeleteLovely to catch up here Jules. have been a little busy with the arrival of the new grand baby. She is very precious, and I am enjoying every moment with them all here!
ReplyDeleteprayers for you and your family!
Oh, Jules....so much going on in your life!! I wanted to stop by and wish you and your family a Blessed Easter~
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xoxoxox
Jules, I appreciate this uplifting post, and I pray that everything turns out alright for your foster son. I just got out of an inpatient treatment program for severe depression, and it was the best thing I ever did, if only because it made me stop and take stock of what was happening inside me.
ReplyDeleteBe well - D
When life is full it seems prayer is always at the bottom of the well....hope your well stays hydrated with love
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